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Beyond by xdarksydex, literature

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Beyond

A hypothetical medical testament to the Cylindrical ventricle, circular chasing of white red Washing and racing cells, telling their tales, never setting a spell, Fighting the foreign like hammering nails, swallowed like plankton to whales Adapting in battle; Going from overwhelmed to "give the helm" The unstoppable colossal apostle of the mind: the body, allotted Many millennia into the equivalent city walls spinning and grinning with purpose Immune, complex and adapted as the nervous, A system built like blatant poetics of nature, is it possible? Can we become perfect? The body, the database, planning and building The Encyclop

Salome by xdarksydex, literature

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Salome

Anoint my head with His words Drown me with lies The rawest eloquence Salome danced And he spoke "Grant her all she will" Perform for the life of another and Claim the prize: adorned in silver Placed upon a platter A jaw agape, head hanging. On whose shoulders does it fall? Innocent feet in fervor, Feverish and sweating Shiva's blazing fire "What should I desire?" The child condemnable for asking. Guilty. Innocent contagiousness "I have swallowed Him" A throat pumped full of Heaven A prophet, a coat of divine lies A wasteland of man. Guilty. Innocent edge of error And hardly the lifeless knife Nor the disjointed ha

Whispering Prufrock by xdarksydex, literature

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Whispering Prufrock

Let's delay for drinks that swish to best match the mood To best suit the dish and amazing Talk with the candles all blazing, gold plated; The sensation received and reciprocated. Imagine things were always this good That in dating we never felt so dated Imagine my words were spotless in phrasing And we'd make our exit, arm and arm, Forgetting the last of our food. We'd pass in snowy summer streets dancing Sideways to the sound of rubber bands Orchestrated like explosions In the key of rain, skyward glancing Our mouths so keen to catch the breeze That tastes of staccatos A scent of fall leaves, and reprieve. Thin arms then str

Memoirs by xdarksydex, literature

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Memoirs

Can you remember the day in the rain? The wind sang in whistles all while whispering to the leaves Who followed behind the thought of your hand in mine With curious eyes pulling closed the curtains if we spied Such infidelities. It was the dust of Winter, the hints of Spring And the trees had entered, dressed in ribbons of green Yet still pale next to your eyes And the trees had entered, making us their guest Yet pretending we weren’t there Yet pretending they didn’t care It was a mystery with no witnesses, no evidence No clear intent, an honest innocence Like children with guns in hand Forgetting them to be kings in s

On the Day of Release by xdarksydex, literature

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On the Day of Release

“But at my back I always hear, Time’s winged chariot hurrying near And yonder all before us lie, deserts of vast eternity.” - It was on a midnight Saturday The apex of the Summer, the breadth of July The last welcome coming of age Long and far I’ve wandered through life Short and still short though have I lived And somewhere within the take and give I begin to question, have I lived And do I even know what that means? In death shall we meet life, just as in life we meet death? And I, still sitting in a high chair called youth, called bliss, called ignorance, I wonder. - It is the fate of every error, of ever

Cards by xdarksydex, literature

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Cards

Our hands are raised Sheltering our opponent’s eyes from temptation And carefully we weigh the probabilities Each move worth our weight in chips Picked for the seeds we sew Quick to throw away our hearts Waste away on our sets of diamonds Misuse the clubs our friendship builds For the curling the spades of gain We seem to play an all-in game Putting in the least all we can muster How indifferent repetition grinds us In the distance from pot to pot til Our voices hoarse and hands are cramped Still wagering forced as mules Watching sullenly for the field to clear We start poor and hope for two of a kind And luck soon fi

Sunshine by xdarksydex, literature

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Sunshine

Each prayer granted Upon our slanted eyes Looks that can’t be held We’re edging along skeptic steps How far and long can we climb Til ends meet and we drop together Freedom in futility It’s humming about Listen to the space between Breath and blinks Blush and sinks I love how you don’t wash off Can you believe In beneath our connotext Struggling to make out From tattered scraps The right in long erased maps We can scan devices The compass until magnetized That decides us where to go At least we’ll know where we stand For minds to ignore meats For thoughts to move as feet To race from fear to spe

The B Word by xdarksydex, literature

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The B Word

How many people do you know? In places of passing like department stores and parking lots we’ll raise our hands and pretend to know the other’s last name just like strangers pretend to talk answering how are you with how are you before either rushes off in pursuit doing anything else they can find. In these places I’ll break a sweat under the glowing hot whites of passerby’s who just burn me up because they spit out how they’ve never seen a perfect outline of someone’s ribs. And with every step I’m weaker under the bulging weight I’ll crumble alone in my room my walls are pinups and pos

You Turn The Page by xdarksydex, literature

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You Turn The Page

If I can sell it, we were single celled to start. And if you are buying, we are born of pairs ironically dependent to it from that day forth. So I may need a hand and as it happens, you have two so let’s try not to be selfish. Now lend me your ears. You may or may not know but on the cranial coastlines you call a head, you have two. Statistically, if you are good at hide and go seek with the opposite sex exchanging secrets instead of spots you could potentially fuck yourself but I’ll try to make things more clear. Truthfully I mean to get married. Even though after a few years these two are the same thing for you a

The Deprivation of One by xdarksydex, literature

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The Deprivation of One

Shun the single frozen pillow Fight the warmed west sheets Wage war upon the heavy eye To deepest carve into he who could forsake the dream in barter for eight hours of rest in peace. --- The zero two median Décor royal, knighted men Would you could you see us then? The pocket, the liar the palm, the briar wisps prompt the flow and hill my boulder forth up and back to spill. Mills churn breeze while waters freeze as Fahren and Kelvin argue degrees [the honest meaning of lonely] Peer into that seeming expired scheme of the mindful with trudging work wielded spear of me. It: shines/reflects|/guides/deflects t

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Beyond by xdarksydex, literature

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Salome by xdarksydex, literature

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Salome

Whispering Prufrock by xdarksydex, literature

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Whispering Prufrock

The Ladder by xdarksydex, literature

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The Ladder

open your eyes your house of cards transparent as the satin sheet forcing you abroad, let go the burning rope, mouths moving, no truth. her grey blanket, his one true blue dependence. screaming surrender. our flickering lights, a fort to hide your beating heart, all walls crumble. white upon your gray, signs dancing in the windows, don't you remember? the sixth rule broken, 4 to be torn from the 2, watchers see future. shadow hidden words, respond like a winding maze, cracking metaphors. the five seven five, phalanx march upon your house. inevitable.

Untitlted by xdarksydex, literature

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Untitlted

Footsteps in the grains of the endless wave Forever stirring but not changing With each and every moment, the metamorphosis, the alpha to omega Never repeat must I the refusal of the green clad to the red Mother, chase away the orange jester, unrelenting My dying question, why the 3rd? The fruit, at fingers length, forever taunting The once straight line, now twisted and broken Survive does the rage of a last stand until the beat stops If the beat persists, was it a last stand true or a new delivery? Return the absolute, blue to white and back Plummet the loving black imperfections to soap the conqueror Solace in the repeating wo

The Silence by xdarksydex, literature

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The Silence

Arise the triforce in chaos, Kilamanjaro, bury us all. Facing worlds, 3 acute to obtuse. Coded with in the pallete. The emerald eyed, The snow wrapped, And the wanderer emersed. Distance like inferno to 9, But ever connected, forever tied. Neon solutions, to blind or def 3 to 1, 1 to none. Opposing combinations, With winter the common. Catepillar to butterfly, Encasing, cocooning. Shower in the beam, The gleaming, the glassy Blinding lights of change. The defining, the cherished, The silence…

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The Race by xdarksydex, literature

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The Race

Split the golden line, Millenia to 1, start from the cave. Shut the windows, speak the deity Blind, the anger and safety. Gleaming 4 shapes at once. Hide the rage of spain, And bath in the remainder, Touched by the mold of evolution The carriers break and fall to the night. Scream silent, surrender, uncontrolling. Fling open the blinds Your lost arc, your crucifix mounted hill. 999 loses to the single, 0 degress the abyss. Sensing the anti lost. Extend the grasps and fall quiet.

One to Zero by xdarksydex, literature

3rd Day by xdarksydex, literature

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3rd Day

The needle falls, All pairs turn to face the center. The vibrant metropolitan of idleness, Reduced to an echo, breaks ago. Emitting from the stage, Belt of Orion condensed. Bathe in the 16th worship, An orgy of 5, surrounding. 1/6, increment of theories, Touched by the infinite, Angles removed, the rest meshed. the patient cube, now alone. Dropped to perfection. The metatron to encase me, "I must be dreaming."

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July 12, 1987
United States
Deviant for 20 years
darksyde.livejournal.com
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Current Residence: Raleigh, NC
Favourite genre of music: Inspired
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: 120g iPod
Shell of choice: TMNT
Skin of choice: Penelope Cruz's
Favourite cartoon character: Captain Falcon, Eeyore, Psyduck
Personal Quote: "Man's life was purposeful motion." -Ayn Rand

Favourite Visual Artist

M.C. Escher

Favourite Movies

V for Vendetta, Eternal Sunshine, Fight Club, Brick, Vanilla Sky, Inception

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Explosions in the Sky, Circa Survive, Tool, Coheed & Cambria, The Mars Volta

Favourite Writers

T.S. Eliot

Favourite Games

Melee

Favourite Gaming Platform

Gamecube

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Living, learning, loving

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Sep 24, 2010

This time baby I'll be bulletproof.

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It has been 2 years since I have last updated this journal. I just spent about 20 minutes reading all my past posts and it's really strange. Since my last update I have finished college and moved to Raleigh. I work at a Credit Union and live in a house with one of my oldest friends, Matt, who used to let me sleep on his couch when I dated Lara. I am a very different person than the one who posted here last, and I can barely remember some of the ways my brain worked for some of these poems or what some of the earliest even mean. What brought me here is the fact that I wrote a new poem for the first time in a long long while. I wrote 2 or 3

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Aug 13, 2008

In the room the women come and go

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Most recent poems from my last day in the hospital. Possibly going to transcribe my scribblings from my most recent manic episode. I really love T.S. Eliot. I miss her very much everyday. My life has been attempting to fall apart and I have instead taking to falling with it. It has been glorious.

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Nov 12, 2007

We are sacrosanct.

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Updating this for the same reason that I always do. A reminder for the next time in my life that I feel inspired. I met an amazing girl. She is wonderful. Inspiration is buried moderately by the amount of papers that I should be writing and am not. Shakespeare is fascinating, and complicated, and beautiful. I've been kicking around a few ideas so maybe there is more to come from this.